anonymous
2011-05-23 23:09:43 UTC
dont think i'm just some little immature girl, could you please read and answer this treating me like an adult? i understand that most relationships this age will not last. But mentally i am older than my age. It is the same with my boyfriend.
He said, 'so you want my name, 'lindsay' :) and 'michael' ;) and something else?' the ';)' face is because he's a fan of michael jackson. we started discussing baby names and came up with 'lindsay may' and 'Riley' if we were to have two girls it would be 'lindsay may' and 'lilly-rose' if it was two boys, 'riley' and 'tommy'
Now, i know what your thinking. 'it wont last.' But some relationships this age do last, and like i say, we are mentally older. My mom and dad met when they were young and started dating, they are still together and very happy. So, please answer keeping in mind that we intend on this all happening, thankyou.
Later that night, he told me, 'I want one.' i asked him 'one what?' and he said, 'a baby. ever since we talked about it i cant stop thinking about it. I want to be the father of your baby. I'd love it. I want to be with you forever. I love you.'
I was out and all i seemed to see was babies and toddlers everywhere. Then, i was lay in bed and little future fantasy's kept playing in my mind. in one i was just with my boyfriend, another i was sat down waiting for him, i had to tell him something. then it went back to just me and him, and then it flicked to one where a little toddler girl was running over to me, bright eyes, rosy cheeks, grinning, dimples and all. she was beautiful. I scooped her up in my arms, looked up, and he was walking over to me.
Then, he made me tell him what I was waiting for… so I did, being very embarrassed about it said, ‘I was going to tell you I was pregnant… why did you want me to tell you that?’ he replied, ‘I wanted you to tell me because I feel absolutely f*cking amazing, I’m waiting to hear those words for real.’
We both know it cant happen now, what with not being accepted into society, our parents, our education, and we haven’t got our own place… we’ve decided on fouryears, when im 18 and he’s 20. then no one can stop us or say anything. But the broodiness and the jealousy wont go away and I want it too! Because I know we have to wait. How can I stop feeling like this? What to do?
He says if we would be accepted and I could catch up with my school work and we had a place then he would, we would, right now. But we both know we need to wait four years, we don’t have a choice.